For the past year and a half I have been doing my own"research" on BDSM relationships. I have encountered allot of interesting people with strong points of view in this lifestyle...and although I am truly intrigued....I still don't get it.
The nature of the relationship seems so severely imbalance that reaching a true form of satisfaction really throws me off...I can't seem to get over the ridicule, demeaning nature of it. But then I do! At times I don't see it as such...I see it as an opportunity to place all your fear, anger, mistrust and issues in someone else's care. I see it as an opportunity to let go, to relinquish, to submerge into your own being. I see it as an opportunity to draw out the essence of your needs, and to let go of the power that forces you to conform to society, tradition, culture and family.
But it's scary...how do you let someone else that far deep into your psyche? How do you permit yourself to trust someone who may or may not be able to handle such a burden? Does it sometimes occur to the sub that the individual is just as human...as he/she is? Or is it just a momentary game that is played in order too fulfill each others desire? Is it just a game that fucks with you hard core and leave you swollen ,wanting more? Is this a form of self-hatred? I see so many potential danger with this relationship...but maybe it's my issue with it all.
Moved.
1 year ago
